Thursday, October 7, 2010

Trainer Erryn

So I gave in and got a trainer! She comes twice a week right now and she is kicking my butt. I still want to lose about 10 lbs and tone up...I am slowly slipping back into my bad eating habits so I had to do something. My sweet tooth is taking over again and I'm losing the war. I ate 2 1/2 pieces of cake today!! WTH is wrong with me???

Erryn has me keeping a journal of what I eat and when I told her what I ate the 1st day she came over, she was like one, I don't eat enough and two, the things I'm eating that I think are good for me actually are not! So she said that she was going to print me out some food choices but the choices aren't the problem, I just don't want to cook it or I don't like the taste...

But I can't gain all this weight back so I have to do something...

Until next time...

Wednesday, September 15, 2010

The bad word "diet"...

So for some reason when I'm on a "diet" I can resist the urge to eat things that are not the best for me because I'm trying to reach a certain goal but as soon as I'm back to eating normal, I let myself eat whatever! I thought the word "diet" was supposed to be a bad word but it seems to be the only thing that keeps me in line...

So in an effort to eat healthier, my co-worker and I are trying the Atkins diet for 2 weeks! LOL! Maybe longer if it isn't too restrictive which, so far, it hasn't been. It's basically giving you recipes that involve little to no carbs which has been my enemy so it has worked out fine. My only concern is that for breakfast it has me eating eggs almost everyday, and I don't want my cholesterol to get out of whack. But it provides some really good options other than just baked chicken for dinner which is why I was getting a little burned out on the healthy eating!

Josh and I are going to an all black birthday party this weekend and I decided to try on a few dresses that I had in my closet last night. There was this one that I haven't worn since I bought it and couldn't fit over the last few years...I was able to get into it last night and it makes me look sooo skinny! I was surprised and honestly, a little uncomfortable! I am sooo uncomfortable with my body and having people look at it and with this dress, it shows a little cleavage and is tight in the mid-section. Should I just go for it or wear the safer option?? It will be dark where we are going so it may be ok...

Until next time...

Sunday, September 5, 2010

Down another pound!

I weighed myself this morning and I'm down another pound!! I'm at 146.8! WOO HOO!! I feel great!!

We are going to stop on the way up to the lake and buy me a bathing suit... :)

Friday, September 3, 2010

So Sore...

I am very proud of myself...I have been getting up in the morning to go walk/running and then doing my Zumba workouts when I get home. I have done some type of workout everyday this week so far. At least 2 a day except for today because it was raining and so we didn't get to go for our walk this morning and tennis was cancelled. I am so sore from this insane Zumba workout...I was so tired after work today that I passed out for 2 hours! LOL

I have been watching my carbs and have a complete meal plan ready for next week. I am hoping that I reach my 1200 calories though...I may have to tweak my meals a little next week. I think my Zumba workout is causing me to build muscle, so I think it will take a little while for me to hit that 20 lbs lost, but I know that I am getting a good workout and my stomach is staying pretty slim...not totally flat but slim enough.

I tried on my size 6 pants from New York and Company today and I can button them up!!! Now they are still a little too tight in the thigh and butt area for me to wear them to work, but at least I can button up a size 6 pants!!!

Praying for patience...

Monday, August 30, 2010

Very sad...

Last week was not a great week diet wise...I'm tired of eating salad...very unhappy...Don't think I am going to reach my goal of 20 lbs lost...all I want to say right now.


Wednesday, August 25, 2010

I'm tired...

I don't know what else to stomach will not go down!! I know I am impatient but dang, I have never been this active in life and I still cannot lose these last 2 lbs. Some days, I feel heavy in the mid-section and other days I don't. It's getting really frustrating! Am I really supposed to not have ANY carbs forever to get that flatter stomach I desire?

I'm not sure what I can eat and I don't have an eating plan, so I can't even figure out what I need to change to start losing. This week, I have been getting up in the mornings and walking and then playing tennis after work. But still no movement.

Ok, I will not step on the scale until next weight has been fluctuating and it's getting me down a little when I see it go up. I don't know what I was thinking when I challenged myself to get into a tankini for Labor Day!! I'm just tired of complaining about the same thing and having the same issue...can I lose this weight and get on with my life already???

On a different note, I ordered this Zumba Fitness DVD and it should arrive in a few days. It's supposed to burn up to 1000 calories a workout! I really hope so, I need to lose these last 2 lbs for a total of 20 by the end of next week.

Oh, one more positive thing...I went to New York and Company this past weekend to purchase some new dress pants for work and I fit into a size 8, no problem!! So I have lost 2 pants sizes since June...that made me VERY happy! I have to learn to celebrate the small victories!

Thursday, August 19, 2010

It feels good...

I had another person tell me that I'm looking good today and it really makes me feel great about the progress that I have done. I would have never imagined that I would actually 1)get as big as I was and 2)finally do something about it that worked! I think I am more aware of when my weight is getting out of hand or when I have not been eating as good as I should or when I have been slacking in my workouts. In the past, I would notice but I didn't care to do anything about it!

I have decided that I am going to challenge myself to do 2 things by Labor Day. One is to lose those last 2 lbs to make my total weight loss 20 and to get into a tankini when we go up to the lake! I would say a bikini, but I am WAY too self-conscious to pull that off!! Baby steps...

So yesterday, I went to the gym and did my cardio for an hour and then I went and played tennis with Josh for 45 mins. I am going to aim at working out at least 5 times a week over the next few weeks and stick to eating my salad and chicken and even increase the Medifast meals from 2 a day to maybe 3 or 4.

Until next time...

Sunday, August 15, 2010


I have lost 18 lbs!!!! I got on the scale this morning and it read 147.6!! I am so excited! I have only been having 2 maybe 3 Medifast meals a day and eating my fruit and salad and if I do have regular foods, I watch how much I eat. I was sure I was going to hold steady at 15-16 pounds lost but ta-da...2 more came off this week! I may hit my 20 this month...

I'm not sure what I should do about the next phase of weight loss. Now that I am getting close to 20 pounds lost should I stick to my original plan and lose that first before I hit the weights or just start now? My concern with the weight lifting is that it's going to put the weight loss on hold for a minute while I'm gaining muscle. I know it will come off eventually but since I'm so close to 20, do I really want to slow down now? I know weight lifting overall is best for me, but should I wait another 2 weeks before I start?

Any suggestions?

Friday, August 13, 2010

My dress fits!!

I bought this dress a few weeks ago and it was a little snug in the hips and much that I was not comfortable wearing it just yet. I am happy to say that I have that dress on today and it's almost too big!!

My weight is not going down or up right now, but I am really off the Medifast diet right now. I do not have an eating schedule the way I need to, so next week, I need to fix that. I still can't eat a huge amount of food and I find myself not being that hungry in the evenings and I know I need to eat something!

I have decided that I will go back to lifting next week for real. I think it's time to start the toning of my muscles now that I have lost some weight and it's holding steady.

I hope this will help me shed a few more pounds, especially in my stomach area. That's still not as flat as I would like...

Until next time...

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

Finally broke 150!

I have weighed myself everyday for the last 4 days, my weight is still at 149.2!! I have finally gotten below 150!! WOO HOO!!

I have played tennis 3 days in a row and today will be four when I go to my class. I really like it and it is supposed to burn a lot of calories. I have added fruit back into my diet and a few other items (not going to mention them and not going to feel guilty!) LOL! I'm feeling a little heavier around the mid section now that I'm eating more carbs but that should be expected. I think as long as I keep working out and making sure I don't fall completely off the wagon, I should be fine.

Friday, August 6, 2010

My official weight!

Ok, so I got up this morning and weighed myself and I am still 150.2. That's 15 lbs lost! It has stayed that way for a few weeks now, but that's fine. I'm just happy to know that I can eat pretty normal and not gain!! I don't think I have stayed this small for longer than a few days in the last 4 years. I am so happy that I am finally getting some control over this weight loss thing. I am getting more active and will start back weight lifting next week.

I definitely think this will be an ongoing battle for me but at least I'm not in denial about it any longer. I will make sure I watch my weight and step on the scale a little more than once a year! I have to learn to say no, even when I would give my right arm for that piece of cake. And I have to stay active...I think that's the key!

I still have a few more pounds that I would love to lose and I have to keep in mind that I didn't gain all of this weight overnight and it's not going to come off that fast either.

Until next time...

Thursday, August 5, 2010

For real...this is my last week!

I decided to do the Medifast diet one more week. It has been going pretty ok, except that I have been eating salsa every night this week. It's leftover from this past weekend and it's sooo good! LOL

I have been working out a little more. I am taking tennis lessons on Tuesdays and Thursdays and that has been sooo much fun. I may have a new hobby! I also went walking twice this week so far as well and will be going with my friend Maggie on Saturday. I got on the scale tonight and I am at 150.2 and that's weighing myself at night (the heaviest time). So I may get the courage to get on the scale in the morning to see what I really weigh.

For some reason, I am really craving fruit! I want to eat some grapes and strawberries so bad. Next week, that will be my treat to myself! LOL How lame...

Until next time...

Wednesday, July 28, 2010

My last week!

This has been the longest week of my life!!! It's my last week of having to be on this Medifast diet before the transition and I am not motivated to stick to it. I have not cheated this week, but I have had mad cravings.

This past weekend wasn't all that great for my diet. I went home to see my mom...she had knee surgery and Saturday night, we decided on pizza for dinner. Mom wanted thin crust and I was SUPPOSED to only eat 1 slice, but by the time we got our pizza, I was so hungry, I ate 2! Well, thin crust does not fill me up that much so a few hours later, I got another... :( I did get up and go walk/running the next morning hopefully offset the damage I had done. Oh, but on a side note, my mom, sister, and dad all said that I looked skinnier. That really made me feel good since my mom and sister always seem to make a big deal about my weight.

So when I got back on Sunday, I was not feeling the shakes and bars at all and I gave in and had McDonalds. OMG! I just love McDonalds double cheeseburgers! I really think they put crack in their food!! So instead of me just shaking that off and moving forward with my shakes I decided that since we were going to a baseball game that night with friends, I wanted to eat a hot dog at the game with everybody else.

So I weighed myself on Monday morning and I had not gained anything but my stomach has not been as flat as it had been in the past. That was a wake-up call! But seriously...can I never have carbs again in life?? I have been doing some sort of workout everyday since Friday (excluding Sunday) and my stomach still hasn't gone back down. :(

I got up and weighed myself this morning and I'm back down to 15 lbs lost but today is Wednesday and our game night is coming up Saturday. I don't plan to stuff myself but I really want a piece of pizza and chips and salsa and peach cobbler...listen to myself! I sound like a fat girl! LOL

I think this will be a constant struggle for me for the rest of my life. I can say at least Medifast has jump started the weight loss process for me when nothing else seem to work. I know that I can't eat ALL of my favorite food in a week's time and that I need to consistently workout.

So for now, I will finish out my week...I only have a half a week left or 18 meals left to go! ;-)

Until next time...

Friday, July 23, 2010

A Little Setback...

I weighed myself this morning and I have gained a half a pound...I'm back at 152! :( I don't know what I have done wrong...I know that I have been eating fattier meats like hamburger meat and steak and I did have crab legs twice this week. My COO did say that your weight could fluctuate sometimes, but this is frustrating! So back to chicken only and being extremely strict for the next week...I guess I won't be hitting 20 by the end of the month after all. :(

Thursday, July 22, 2010

1 More Week...

I only have one more week of the full Medifast diet where I eat their meals 5 times a day...then I start the transition phase! WOO HOO! I went down 15 lbs on Sunday and then back up to only 14 lbs lost and I have stayed here since then. I'm kind-of bummed after having such a great loss last week. I was for sure that I would hit my 20 by the end of the month. And I still may, but I would feel more confident if the scale moved down a little this week! I have been having a real hard time remembering to eat all of my Medifast meals this week. There has been a few days where I have only eaten 4 or had to eat them all in a few hours at night. I have to do least to finish out my last week!

Until next time...

Saturday, July 17, 2010

On my way to 20 Lost!!

I weighed myself this morning and I have lost 14 lbs! I'm so excited!! I weigh 151.2! I'm about to break 150 and it has been about 2 years since I was under 150! If I lose 3 pounds a week, I can hit my 20 pounds by the end of this month! I will have to turn up the workout though. I went walking this morning with some friends and we walked for an hour and fifteen minutes! I really need to tone stomach isn't as flat as I would like it. But I am going to stick to my plan and not lift weights until I hit 20 lbs lost!

I still haven't had an urge to cheat yet and I haven't been put in any situation that has made it hard for me to stick to my diet. We are having game night at our house the last of this month and that's my last day of my diet, so I think I will allow myself one shot and a slice of pizza! :)

Until next time...

Monday, July 12, 2010

I just had to...

I had to weigh myself this morning, I couldn't wait until tomorrow...I'm down 12 lbs!! I'm sooo excited! My co-workers said that I looked smaller today and that just made my day!

On another note, my co-worker started working out a little more last week and she said that she was starving all week. This weekend, she passed out at the park while walking! That has me a little terrified to increase my workout at the moment...I was planning on actually going to the gym after work and doing a little cardio. :-o I mean but we are only eating 800-900 calories a day, that's hardly enough to have the energy for a good workout. She is going to add another meal and cut back on the Medifast meals and see if that will help. I'm going to just workout for like 30 mins when I do my cardio this week and hopefully, I won't get lightheaded or hungry.

I'm still trying to lose a total of 20 lbs before I add real food back in...maybe 25?

Until next time...

Friday, July 9, 2010

Can't Believe It...

I'm off today...we are not going to Houston this weekend after all though. There is a bad storm coming up through TX and we decided to reschedule our girl's weekend. On one hand, I am sad...I really wanted to see all my friends and get away for the weekend and hang out but on the other hand this allows me the opportunity to stick to my diet and not cheat this month like I vowed...

Ok, so I got up and weighed myself and I am down 11 lbs!! I could not believe it so I stepped on the scale 3 times. Yep, 154.4 it read! that makes this feel worth it! And now I feel more motivated to continue working out...matter of fact, I think I am going to go walk the dogs here in a little bit!

I have 9 more to go this month!! I'm sooo excited!

Wednesday, July 7, 2010

Week 5...

Last week was a rough week for me! I hated every bit of this diet and I resented being fat and having to diet in the first place!! To make matters worse, my co-worker lost a total of 15 lbs in 5 weeks while another lady who is doing the Medifast diet lost 13 in 3 weeks!! So you know what I go and do?? I take my happy ass to McDonalds for a treat and decided not to even get upset and to start over on Saturday. I have been doing great since Saturday and have vowed not to cheat at all this month.

I weighed myself this morning and I'm down 9.5 lbs! WOO HOO!! I feel slimmer and that helps keep me motivated. I really want to lose a total of 20 lbs by the end of this month. I started hip hop dance classes yesterday and I think I missed my calling! LOL Now, I'm not a Beyonce by any means but I had sooo much fun and it didn't seem like a workout at all. Too bad it's only once a week...but it's a start. I also signed up for Belly Dancing classes...that is going to be VERY interesting! I just want to work out doing something I like and dancing is it amazingly.

I have a girl's trip this weekend in Houston that I am so looking forward to and all of my friends that I am meeting up with are slim and fit and I know I am going to be self conscious. I'm trying to figure out if I should just mention my weight gain upfront and get it over with or just hope they don't notice! :-o LMAO!!

And here again, what to do about this diet while I'm gone?? Awww damn, I am going to have to break my vow for the weekend just a little. I mean, we are going to Lupe's and I heard they had the best Mexican ever! And I LOVE Mexican food!! I will not go overboard like I did in Colorado. I will try to stick to my diet as much as possible this weekend.

Until next time...

Thursday, July 1, 2010

1 month results!

Today is officially my one month mark on the Medifast diet and I have lost 8 lbs! I gained a pound since Saturday but I know I have not been following the diet the way I was supposed to this week. I did go running with the dogs last night, so at least I'm back on track to doing more cardio. I am so freaking sore!!

I am aiming for 12 pounds this next month, so hopefully, with my hip hop class starting next week and with me jogging with the dogs, I can be on track to lose those 12!

I am still happy that I am 8 lbs lighter than I was a month ago! YAY ME!

Wednesday, June 30, 2010

New Day, New Attitude!

Ok, so I know I was crabby yesterday, but today is a new day and I have a new attitude. I got a good ole pep talk from my co-worker who is doing the diet with me as well as my sweetie, Josh. I got a lot of encouragement from my friends on facebook as well that reminded me that this is a process and it's not going to be easy. So I have decided to get me some braids so I can work out without having to worry about blow-drying and flat ironing my hair everyday and get my ass off the couch!

Josh and I took the dogs out for a walk/run last night and man, I'm out of shape! Me and Blu (our fat Pit puppy) were breathing all hard and couldn't keep up while Josh and Bossy were doing a light jog, backwards while doing cartwheels to show off! LOL But it's a start...

Danielle and I signed up for tennis lessons that will start in August and I signed up for a hip-hop dance class that starts next week...oh boy! This is going to be INTERESTING!! LOL

Josh also mentioned that technically my 1 month mark is tomorrow since I started June 1st so I can really weigh myself in the morning...I think I'll take it!

Until tomorrow!! :)

Tuesday, June 29, 2010

Not a great diet day...

I don't really feel all that great today, I don't exactly know what it is but I didn't even get on the scale today. I was craving real food last night and I gave in to the urge and ordered pizza! I ate two slices and 1 and a half bread sticks. I guess if I had to find a silver lining it would be that I didn't eat the whole second slice because I was too full and I ended up giving it to the dogs. But today, I just feel like I am failing at this weight loss. I know 9 lbs is good, but still I think, that's it? I am missing out on normal food and drastically reducing my calorie intake for only 9 lbs in a month??? How much longer will I have to do this? How much longer CAN I do this? I don't feel like my clothes are fitting any different, at times I feel bloated, and I just want to eat some damn fruit every now and then!!

I think I am letting some of the nay-sayers get to me. I had a co-worker that was going to the gym last night and she mentioned that she was starting Weight Watchers. I asked her why she wasn't joining Medifast like the rest of the office and she said that it wasn't all that healthy of a diet. That when you get off of it, you gain all of this weight back. This has been my biggest concern the whole time due to the amount of calories we are allowed to eat and the lack of normal food we are eating. What happens when we go back to eating normal food? I know there is a transition phase that is suppose to help you slowly reintroduce food back into your life and you are not suppose to go back to eating the bad food that helped you get to being a fat ass in the first place, but seriously, if you take it all away and say you can't have any of it, eventually, you will want a taste of it and could possible even over indulge, right?? That's my fear!! I'm a binge eater! Eating in moderation is hard for me...

So can't you see why today is not the best day I've had on this diet?? I didn't want to make matters worse by getting on the scale and seeing that because I had some normal food, I gained weight...

Sunday, June 27, 2010

Birthday party!

I weighed myself yesterday morning and I have lost 9 lbs! YAY I just need 1 more pound to reach my goal of 10 in a month. My one month will be on Tuesday...

Josh had a birthday dinner last night and I think for the most part I did good...LOL! I had one bite of cake, I did eat a sweet potato, veggies, grilled pork chop and one small chicken wing...not too bad right??

We had a really good time at Brooklyn's last night. I think Josh enjoyed his birthday. I got him a Ravens golf bag cake (Baltimore Ravens is his favorite football team) and it came out as a surprise. He loved it so much he wouldn't even let us cut it! LOL

We are going to a wedding tonight and I'm not sure what is on the menu, most likely chicken, so I should be fine...I do think I will want a piece of cake though. Wedding cake is the BEST!! A few bites won't hurt, right?

I still haven't started exercising...I keep coming up with excuses. I have to get motivated to start...I know this will help speed up the weight loss process but I just don't feel like it. I can tell a little difference in certain clothes but nothing drastic. I'm not sure what I'm expecting at 9 lbs lost but I guess since this is the most I have lost in a while I think I should be fitting into my skinny jeans by now! LOL

I know I have to be patient and that's hard for me...that's why I never last longer than a few weeks on a diet, I'm too impatient! I do have days where I just want to eat normal, bad-for-me food and not care about my weight, but then I know I will feel miserable afterwards and regret it. I have all of this Medifast food in my pantry so if nothing else, I have to stick to this until I finish all of that. I hate wasting money!!

Stay tuned for the 1 month weigh in results! :)

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

Not that Bad...

I decided to bite the bullet and weigh myself today afterall...I went down another pound! YAY!! So I have lost a total of 8 lbs in 3 weeks! It probably would have been more if I had not slipped a little last week, but at least I didn't gain everything back! I still have a week left and I really want to lose 10 lbs in the first month!

Until next time...

Sunday, June 20, 2010

Bad girl...

So we just got back from our Colorado trip and boy I'm upset with myself! I ate maybe one Medifast meal the whole trip! They cooked 3 times a day plus dessert!! I was so stressed out about trying not to offend anyone and stick to my diet that Josh and I decided that I should just take a break from the diet while there and eat the food served at his grandma's house. OMG! I went a little overboard! They had steak, lasagna, bread, rice crispy treats, hamburgers, enchiladas, cookies, jell-o, ice cream, fruit, eggs, bacon, sweet tea, lemonade, coke...and I tried everything...more than once! The pants that I wore down there were a little big...almost falling down. By the time I left, they were back to fitting fine. Could it be possible that I really put back on all that weight in 4 days?? I'm scared to get on the scale and I woke up this morning a little upset with myself because I have a couple of upcoming events that I was hoping to be a little smaller for...

I can't dwell on it too much, what's done is done. I am going to work out everyday this week and get back on my diet. I need to lose some pounds by the end of this week for sure! I have a cute, little dress that I have to get into by Sunday for a wedding and I don't want to look like Barney (the dress is purple)!

On another note, Danielle has lost 11 lbs so far and that is great! If nothing else, I know it works, I will just have to add a lot more cardio to speed up this process!

No more dwelling on the past and my slip-up...on to a smaller me!

Until next time...

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

2 week mark!

Today marks two weeks that I have been on the Medifast diet and I have lost a total of 7 lbs!! I am still aiming for 10-15 by the end of month one and it looks as if I'm on track to hit that. Josh and I leave for Colorado tomorrow and fortunately the Medifast store in Allen will allow me to come in and make one emergency purchase a year! This will help me out so much! Now, I don't have to worry about not having enough food while I'm out of town. The rest of my food should be in when I get back in town.

Danielle has lost a total of 9 lbs and Kandye has lost 8.5. We have another co-worker that started a week ago and has lost 5 lbs! LOL We are all going to be on this diet after awhile! I wonder if I can get in a bikini by the end of summer??

Until next time...

Saturday, June 12, 2010

Weigh In Day!

Today is my official weigh in day...159.6! Still down 6 lbs!

Josh and I went up to his dad's house at the lake today...he just bought a boat and wanted to take us out on it. We had a lot of fun but I had to disclose that I was on a diet and could only eat certain things. His stepmom was great! She made a salad just for me and offered us a variety of meat....regular hamburgers, veggie burgers and turkey burgers! They also had strawberry shortcake and french fries! :( But luckily, I didn't feel tempted to cheat at all.

I do see a dilemma arising though...we are leaving Wednesday to go to Colorado to visit Josh's grandma. His whole immediate family will be there and staying with her. One issue is that I am wondering how this whole mixing my food will work out of town. I won't know our schedule and where we will be when it's time for me to eat or if they will have anything that I can eat...I don't want anyone to have to go out of their way to fix anything special for me. My second issue is that since I am sending back a lot of the boxes for shakes and bars, I am not sure I will have enough to get me through all of next week. What will I do then? I am going to contact the local store and see if there is a way I can purchase from them until my order arrives. If not, I don't know what I am going to do...

Until next time...

Thursday, June 10, 2010


I had a small slip...I got on the scale this morning even though I said I would wait until Saturday!

Drumroll please.....

I LOST 6 lbs!!! I'm so HAPPY!

My weight is now 159.2!

Wednesday, June 9, 2010

The Biscuit...

Ok, so today I feel lighter overall, but I'm still afraid to weigh myself. I don't want to see that I haven't lost anything or even worse...I have gained. I'm going to stick to waiting until Saturday to weigh myself. I have to have lost something by then, right?

So, I'm a little embarrassed to admit this but I think it's kind of funny. I went to KFC to get some grilled chicken for dinner and apparently a biscuit comes with it. I take the biscuit out of the box and decide that I am going to give it to the dogs...if I can just get it to their bowl without giving in to the temptation to eat this whole thing in one bite. I get right over the dog's food bowl and take one bite and drop the biscuit in the bowl! I chew the biscuit and take a sigh... I swear this is the best damn biscuit I have had in my life!! LOL I then come to my senses and snap out of it before I swallow and rush over to the trash to spit out the biscuit. I feel kind-of weird about it, but I felt satisfied with just getting to taste some real food...

I have to keep pushing's only been a week and 2 days! I can't give up now, but what I wouldn't pay to eat some Mexican food right now...

Until next time...

Monday, June 7, 2010

Day 7

This weekend was not bad at all...I didn't even crave anything bad to eat. Josh was very supportive and helped me stay the course. He even ate his hamburger with lettuce buns yesterday like I did! :)

By Sunday, I had lost a total of 4.5 lbs and was feeling great! No headaches, no cravings, and I wasn't very hungry. Matter of fact I only ate 4 Medifast meals Saturday and Sunday...which may have something to do with the fact that I gained a pound when I got up this morning. :(

So, I'm back to sticking to the eating plan and will get in my 5 meals and my lean and green, no matter what! I definitely have more energy and I'm excited about that, now I need to be sure to do some type of activity to increase the weight loss. We will probably walk the dogs today after dinner...that will be an adventure. Blu smelling everything and eating the grass and Bossy trying to kill everything with a tail! I bet we look like a freak show going around the neighborhood! LOL

I will not weigh myself again until Saturday...hopefully, I'll be down a little more by then!

Until next time...

Friday, June 4, 2010

Day 4

I feel so much better today...the last two days I had very small headaches that would come in the evening time when it was close to dinner. They weren't pounding but they were nagging enough that all I wanted to do was come home and sleep. I was exhausted the last few days as well...I actually had to take my lunch in the car yesterday and take a quick nap to reenergize and make it through the day! Wednesday, I had the chili for lunch and it looked like DOG FOOD! It makes me dry heave everytime I think about it...I'm so done with that one! We found out that if you have only used one package out of each box, you can exchange them for something else of equal or less value. I think we are all going to send back the soup...after eating on these for a few days, you are pretty much over it. I am going to start bringing part of my lean and green with me to eat for lunch and having the rest for dinner. So, I think my day will consist of me drinking the shakes, eating the bars and having a lean and more gagging!

I have lost 3 lbs so far!! I'm excited! The real test will come this weekend...Josh and I normally eat out. I haven't been craving anything bad though, so I'm hoping it won't be that difficult for me to stick to the diet. I was even able to pass by McDonalds last night while hungry! That's a HUGE accomplishment for me! I am McDonalds' number 1 fan!

Next week, I will start back with the weight lifting and cardio, that should speed up the results. I don't know what I realistically want to lose for this month...10-15 would be ideal, anything more would be great! I'm just glad the scale is moving in the right direction for once!

Until next time...

Tuesday, June 1, 2010


The end of Day wasn't as bad as I was expecting! I only had a slight headache by dinner time and I was a little sluggish but definitely not as bad as I thought I would be. I think tomorrow will be difficult for that my body is over the shock of not having it's normal food, it may just show out. Good times at work tomorrow! :) I had the chicken and wild rice soup for lunch and a side salad. I ate my food slowly as the book suggested and drank tons of water. I think I was in the bathroom more than I was at my desk today! I had grilled chicken and green beans for dinner and a brownie for my evening snack. The brownie wasn't all that great...I had a choice, either microwave it for a minute and a half or bake it in the oven. Hmmm...who wants a microwaved brownie?? It still wasn't to die for, but it was sweet and I ate it anyway! LOL Let's see what tomorrow brings...

Ok, so Josh and I had a real heart to heart talk tonight about how I have changed over the last year or so and I think the changes came with the weight gain. I used to feel as if I could do anything I set my mind to, but lately I doubt everything I do...I question my real purpose for being here and I care way too much about how others view me. I want to please everyone and if I think I won't accomplish that then I just won't try at all. So with the weight loss, I'm hoping to gain back my self-confidence, my self-esteem, and my happiness. I have posted a few sticky notes on my bathroom mirror as a reminder to states that I will not care what others think of me, another says that I can do anything I set my mind to and the last one states that I will NOT be fat forever! I want the old Tamika back! The always smiling, fun to be around, happy-go-lucky, let everything roll off her back she stuffed in this pile of fat around my mid-section? If so, I'm coming for you...I will see her again, real soon! ;-)

Until next time...

Day 1!

Today is the first day of my Medifast diet...Danielle came in to work and has lost 6 lbs since Saturday and Kandye has lost 5 since last Tuesday! Those are awesome results!! I can't wait to get some of this fat off of me!

I have had a shake for breakfast and a bar for my mid-morning headaches yet and no crazy hunger pain. I'm used to not eating alot before lunch so I wasn't expecting the morning to be very difficult. Now after lunch is going to be the problem. I always get hungry around 2 or 3 and all I have today is a shake for that meal! I'm hoping my side salad and soup for lunch will get me through most of the afternoon. If I can lose 5 lbs in the first 3 days and do it with minimum headaches, that will be a great start!!

Monday, May 31, 2010

Memorial Day

Ok, so today is my official last day of being able to eat whatever I want and to finally take some control of my weight. Kandye has lost 4.5 lbs in almost a week and Danielle has lost 5 lbs in 2 days!! I'm so ready to start this diet and get back to my college weight! I don't even know what I will do when I get back down to my ideal weight. I'm so excited!!!

I know that this is it for me...I got off the phone with my grandma a little while ago and she had to have surgery to clear the blockage in her heart. My dad had to have this surgery as well as my other grandma....we are all a little heavier than we should be and with living in AR, eat good southern cooking! I don't want this to be my future. I have to do something about it now! I haven't even had children yet...I have no good excuse except for being too lazy and unmotivated to really do anything about it but complain.

So we are about to head over to some friends for a BBQ, then I have to come home to plan out my meals for this week and get my Advil ready...everybody said the first few days are full of headaches! I weighed myself and took my measurements this morning. Today my weight is 165.6...

Until next time...

Saturday, May 29, 2010

Last weekend to binge eat!

Josh and I are about to go out to eat...this is the last weekend I can eat whatever I want in the manner that I am used to. Tuesday, I am starting the Medifast diet...I have mixed feelings about it. I am more than ready to get this weight off of me, but I am not looking forward to the headaches and feeling tired. I refused to start when I received my package on Tuesday because of the upcoming holiday weekend...I want to be able to enjoy my holiday weekend and not be sooo grouchy because of the change in my diet. I have been reading up on people's results and that has gotten me extremely excited! I want to lose 40 pounds and keep it off! I have two co-workers that will be doing this diet with me and they have started already. One has lost 3 lbs in three days already! The other got sick on her first day and threw up! WTH??? Maybe I shouldn't start this when I have to go to work and be with new hires all day! LOL Oh well...Cotton Patch is calling my name...gotta go!

Until next time...