Going good...

Ok, so today is Day 3 of the Weight Watchers diet and so far, I have no real complaints. Trying to get my points right have been a little challenging but it will get easier, I'm sure. Monday, I went over by 6 points and had to dip into my weekly flex points and yesterday, I didn't eat all my points and had 3 left over. I was really proud of myself last night though...I ate a really good dinner and snacked on fruit all day when I was craving sweets.

I haven't started working out the way I wanted to just yet though. I keep finding excuses, like it's Monday or "The Game" will be on soon...LOL! I am aiming at working out 4 times this week...I have 4 days left. Wow...maybe I should aim at 3 instead. I do have to put the treadmill together with Josh tonight... ;-)

Until next time!

I'm BACK!!!

I have been away for a few months and I am sad to report that I have gained most of my weight back...I have enjoyed the hell out of the holidays though! :) I guess the good thing about Medifast is that it helps you drop the weight fast but when you get off it, and you go back to eating unhealthy (because you didn't learn to eat the right things), you gain your weight back. BUT, I am not going to let that stop me from achieving my ultimate weight loss goal and keeping it off! So, now I am going to try Weight Watchers with a friend of mine and a co-worker. They have both done it before and lost with it. I'm excited to see my new body in a few months! LOL! We ordered a treadmill Monday and hopefully that will help me stay active since I hate going to the gym. I have been doing the Dance Central game on the XBox Kinect and man is that a workout...

So bottom line is that I am motivated and ready to change my lifestyle and eating habits once and for all. I do have to figure out another way to handle stress in my life though. I immediately turn to food and I know that's not good for me, but I don't know what else to do. Like yesterday, both my supervisors have really been working my nerves this week. To the point where I wish I had enough money saved up so I could tell them both to kiss my ass and quit on the spot, but I don't, so instead I totally blew my diet and went to McDonalds after work and then went home and baked some mini double chocolate chip cookies and ate like 5 of them...oh and I had a glass of Moscato. That all finally calmed me down! What else can I do? To me, working out is not the answer, but maybe if I start boxing, that will help me get out some aggression. I definitely have to find an outlet because if the conversation that I had with my boss just 10 minutes ago is any indication of what my future will be like at this place, I am going to need something other than food to calm me down if I want to lose weight. SMH... I'm getting frustrated all over again thinking about it...where are my damn Mike and Ikes???? UGH!!

Trainer Erryn

So I gave in and got a trainer! She comes twice a week right now and she is kicking my butt. I still want to lose about 10 lbs and tone up...I am slowly slipping back into my bad eating habits so I had to do something. My sweet tooth is taking over again and I'm losing the war. I ate 2 1/2 pieces of cake today!! WTH is wrong with me???

Erryn has me keeping a journal of what I eat and when I told her what I ate the 1st day she came over, she was like one, I don't eat enough and two, the things I'm eating that I think are good for me actually are not! So she said that she was going to print me out some food choices but the choices aren't the problem, I just don't want to cook it or I don't like the taste...

But I can't gain all this weight back so I have to do something...

Until next time...

The bad word "diet"...

So for some reason when I'm on a "diet" I can resist the urge to eat things that are not the best for me because I'm trying to reach a certain goal but as soon as I'm back to eating normal, I let myself eat whatever! I thought the word "diet" was supposed to be a bad word but it seems to be the only thing that keeps me in line...

So in an effort to eat healthier, my co-worker and I are trying the Atkins diet for 2 weeks! LOL! Maybe longer if it isn't too restrictive which, so far, it hasn't been. It's basically giving you recipes that involve little to no carbs which has been my enemy so it has worked out fine. My only concern is that for breakfast it has me eating eggs almost everyday, and I don't want my cholesterol to get out of whack. But it provides some really good options other than just baked chicken for dinner which is why I was getting a little burned out on the healthy eating!

Josh and I are going to an all black birthday party this weekend and I decided to try on a few dresses that I had in my closet last night. There was this one that I haven't worn since I bought it and couldn't fit over the last few years...I was able to get into it last night and it makes me look sooo skinny! I was surprised and honestly, a little uncomfortable! I am sooo uncomfortable with my body and having people look at it and with this dress, it shows a little cleavage and is tight in the mid-section. Should I just go for it or wear the safer option?? It will be dark where we are going so it may be ok...

Until next time...

Down another pound!

I weighed myself this morning and I'm down another pound!! I'm at 146.8! WOO HOO!! I feel great!!

We are going to stop on the way up to the lake and buy me a bathing suit... :)

So Sore...

I am very proud of myself...I have been getting up in the morning to go walk/running and then doing my Zumba workouts when I get home. I have done some type of workout everyday this week so far. At least 2 a day except for today because it was raining and so we didn't get to go for our walk this morning and tennis was cancelled. I am so sore from this insane Zumba workout...I was so tired after work today that I passed out for 2 hours! LOL

I have been watching my carbs and have a complete meal plan ready for next week. I am hoping that I reach my 1200 calories though...I may have to tweak my meals a little next week. I think my Zumba workout is causing me to build muscle, so I think it will take a little while for me to hit that 20 lbs lost, but I know that I am getting a good workout and my stomach is staying pretty slim...not totally flat but slim enough.

I tried on my size 6 pants from New York and Company today and I can button them up!!! Now they are still a little too tight in the thigh and butt area for me to wear them to work, but at least I can button up a size 6 pants!!!

Praying for patience...

Very sad...

Last week was not a great week diet wise...I'm tired of eating salad...very unhappy...Don't think I am going to reach my goal of 20 lbs lost...all I want to say right now.

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