New Day, New Attitude!

Ok, so I know I was crabby yesterday, but today is a new day and I have a new attitude. I got a good ole pep talk from my co-worker who is doing the diet with me as well as my sweetie, Josh. I got a lot of encouragement from my friends on facebook as well that reminded me that this is a process and it's not going to be easy. So I have decided to get me some braids so I can work out without having to worry about blow-drying and flat ironing my hair everyday and get my ass off the couch!

Josh and I took the dogs out for a walk/run last night and man, I'm out of shape! Me and Blu (our fat Pit puppy) were breathing all hard and couldn't keep up while Josh and Bossy were doing a light jog, backwards while doing cartwheels to show off! LOL But it's a start...

Danielle and I signed up for tennis lessons that will start in August and I signed up for a hip-hop dance class that starts next week...oh boy! This is going to be INTERESTING!! LOL

Josh also mentioned that technically my 1 month mark is tomorrow since I started June 1st so I can really weigh myself in the morning...I think I'll take it!

Until tomorrow!! :)

Not a great diet day...

I don't really feel all that great today, I don't exactly know what it is but I didn't even get on the scale today. I was craving real food last night and I gave in to the urge and ordered pizza! I ate two slices and 1 and a half bread sticks. I guess if I had to find a silver lining it would be that I didn't eat the whole second slice because I was too full and I ended up giving it to the dogs. But today, I just feel like I am failing at this weight loss. I know 9 lbs is good, but still I think, that's it? I am missing out on normal food and drastically reducing my calorie intake for only 9 lbs in a month??? How much longer will I have to do this? How much longer CAN I do this? I don't feel like my clothes are fitting any different, at times I feel bloated, and I just want to eat some damn fruit every now and then!!

I think I am letting some of the nay-sayers get to me. I had a co-worker that was going to the gym last night and she mentioned that she was starting Weight Watchers. I asked her why she wasn't joining Medifast like the rest of the office and she said that it wasn't all that healthy of a diet. That when you get off of it, you gain all of this weight back. This has been my biggest concern the whole time due to the amount of calories we are allowed to eat and the lack of normal food we are eating. What happens when we go back to eating normal food? I know there is a transition phase that is suppose to help you slowly reintroduce food back into your life and you are not suppose to go back to eating the bad food that helped you get to being a fat ass in the first place, but seriously, if you take it all away and say you can't have any of it, eventually, you will want a taste of it and could possible even over indulge, right?? That's my fear!! I'm a binge eater! Eating in moderation is hard for me...

So can't you see why today is not the best day I've had on this diet?? I didn't want to make matters worse by getting on the scale and seeing that because I had some normal food, I gained weight...

Birthday party!

I weighed myself yesterday morning and I have lost 9 lbs! YAY I just need 1 more pound to reach my goal of 10 in a month. My one month will be on Tuesday...

Josh had a birthday dinner last night and I think for the most part I did good...LOL! I had one bite of cake, I did eat a sweet potato, veggies, grilled pork chop and one small chicken wing...not too bad right??

We had a really good time at Brooklyn's last night. I think Josh enjoyed his birthday. I got him a Ravens golf bag cake (Baltimore Ravens is his favorite football team) and it came out as a surprise. He loved it so much he wouldn't even let us cut it! LOL

We are going to a wedding tonight and I'm not sure what is on the menu, most likely chicken, so I should be fine...I do think I will want a piece of cake though. Wedding cake is the BEST!! A few bites won't hurt, right?

I still haven't started exercising...I keep coming up with excuses. I have to get motivated to start...I know this will help speed up the weight loss process but I just don't feel like it. I can tell a little difference in certain clothes but nothing drastic. I'm not sure what I'm expecting at 9 lbs lost but I guess since this is the most I have lost in a while I think I should be fitting into my skinny jeans by now! LOL

I know I have to be patient and that's hard for me...that's why I never last longer than a few weeks on a diet, I'm too impatient! I do have days where I just want to eat normal, bad-for-me food and not care about my weight, but then I know I will feel miserable afterwards and regret it. I have all of this Medifast food in my pantry so if nothing else, I have to stick to this until I finish all of that. I hate wasting money!!

Stay tuned for the 1 month weigh in results! :)

Not that Bad...

I decided to bite the bullet and weigh myself today afterall...I went down another pound! YAY!! So I have lost a total of 8 lbs in 3 weeks! It probably would have been more if I had not slipped a little last week, but at least I didn't gain everything back! I still have a week left and I really want to lose 10 lbs in the first month!

Until next time...

Bad girl...

So we just got back from our Colorado trip and boy I'm upset with myself! I ate maybe one Medifast meal the whole trip! They cooked 3 times a day plus dessert!! I was so stressed out about trying not to offend anyone and stick to my diet that Josh and I decided that I should just take a break from the diet while there and eat the food served at his grandma's house. OMG! I went a little overboard! They had steak, lasagna, bread, rice crispy treats, hamburgers, enchiladas, cookies, jell-o, ice cream, fruit, eggs, bacon, sweet tea, lemonade, coke...and I tried everything...more than once! The pants that I wore down there were a little big...almost falling down. By the time I left, they were back to fitting fine. Could it be possible that I really put back on all that weight in 4 days?? I'm scared to get on the scale and I woke up this morning a little upset with myself because I have a couple of upcoming events that I was hoping to be a little smaller for...

I can't dwell on it too much, what's done is done. I am going to work out everyday this week and get back on my diet. I need to lose some pounds by the end of this week for sure! I have a cute, little dress that I have to get into by Sunday for a wedding and I don't want to look like Barney (the dress is purple)!

On another note, Danielle has lost 11 lbs so far and that is great! If nothing else, I know it works, I will just have to add a lot more cardio to speed up this process!

No more dwelling on the past and my slip-up...on to a smaller me!

Until next time...

2 week mark!

Today marks two weeks that I have been on the Medifast diet and I have lost a total of 7 lbs!! I am still aiming for 10-15 by the end of month one and it looks as if I'm on track to hit that. Josh and I leave for Colorado tomorrow and fortunately the Medifast store in Allen will allow me to come in and make one emergency purchase a year! This will help me out so much! Now, I don't have to worry about not having enough food while I'm out of town. The rest of my food should be in when I get back in town.

Danielle has lost a total of 9 lbs and Kandye has lost 8.5. We have another co-worker that started a week ago and has lost 5 lbs! LOL We are all going to be on this diet after awhile! I wonder if I can get in a bikini by the end of summer??

Until next time...

Weigh In Day!

Today is my official weigh in day...159.6! Still down 6 lbs!

Josh and I went up to his dad's house at the lake today...he just bought a boat and wanted to take us out on it. We had a lot of fun but I had to disclose that I was on a diet and could only eat certain things. His stepmom was great! She made a salad just for me and offered us a variety of meat....regular hamburgers, veggie burgers and turkey burgers! They also had strawberry shortcake and french fries! :( But luckily, I didn't feel tempted to cheat at all.

I do see a dilemma arising though...we are leaving Wednesday to go to Colorado to visit Josh's grandma. His whole immediate family will be there and staying with her. One issue is that I am wondering how this whole mixing my food will work out of town. I won't know our schedule and where we will be when it's time for me to eat or if they will have anything that I can eat...I don't want anyone to have to go out of their way to fix anything special for me. My second issue is that since I am sending back a lot of the boxes for shakes and bars, I am not sure I will have enough to get me through all of next week. What will I do then? I am going to contact the local store and see if there is a way I can purchase from them until my order arrives. If not, I don't know what I am going to do...

Until next time...

I CHEATED!

I had a small slip...I got on the scale this morning even though I said I would wait until Saturday!

Drumroll please.....


I LOST 6 lbs!!! I'm so HAPPY!

My weight is now 159.2!

The Biscuit...

Ok, so today I feel lighter overall, but I'm still afraid to weigh myself. I don't want to see that I haven't lost anything or even worse...I have gained. I'm going to stick to waiting until Saturday to weigh myself. I have to have lost something by then, right?

So, I'm a little embarrassed to admit this but I think it's kind of funny. I went to KFC to get some grilled chicken for dinner and apparently a biscuit comes with it. I take the biscuit out of the box and decide that I am going to give it to the dogs...if I can just get it to their bowl without giving in to the temptation to eat this whole thing in one bite. I get right over the dog's food bowl and take one bite and drop the biscuit in the bowl! I chew the biscuit and take a sigh... I swear this is the best damn biscuit I have had in my life!! LOL I then come to my senses and snap out of it before I swallow and rush over to the trash to spit out the biscuit. I feel kind-of weird about it, but I felt satisfied with just getting to taste some real food...

I have to keep pushing on...it's only been a week and 2 days! I can't give up now, but what I wouldn't pay to eat some Mexican food right now...

Until next time...

Day 7

This weekend was not bad at all...I didn't even crave anything bad to eat. Josh was very supportive and helped me stay the course. He even ate his hamburger with lettuce buns yesterday like I did! :)

By Sunday, I had lost a total of 4.5 lbs and was feeling great! No headaches, no cravings, and I wasn't very hungry. Matter of fact I only ate 4 Medifast meals Saturday and Sunday...which may have something to do with the fact that I gained a pound when I got up this morning. :(

So, I'm back to sticking to the eating plan and will get in my 5 meals and my lean and green, no matter what! I definitely have more energy and I'm excited about that, now I need to be sure to do some type of activity to increase the weight loss. We will probably walk the dogs today after dinner...that will be an adventure. Blu smelling everything and eating the grass and Bossy trying to kill everything with a tail! I bet we look like a freak show going around the neighborhood! LOL

I will not weigh myself again until Saturday...hopefully, I'll be down a little more by then!

Until next time...

Day 4

I feel so much better today...the last two days I had very small headaches that would come in the evening time when it was close to dinner. They weren't pounding but they were nagging enough that all I wanted to do was come home and sleep. I was exhausted the last few days as well...I actually had to take my lunch in the car yesterday and take a quick nap to reenergize and make it through the day! Wednesday, I had the chili for lunch and it looked like DOG FOOD! It makes me dry heave everytime I think about it...I'm so done with that one! We found out that if you have only used one package out of each box, you can exchange them for something else of equal or less value. I think we are all going to send back the soup...after eating on these for a few days, you are pretty much over it. I am going to start bringing part of my lean and green with me to eat for lunch and having the rest for dinner. So, I think my day will consist of me drinking the shakes, eating the bars and having a lean and green...no more gagging!

I have lost 3 lbs so far!! I'm excited! The real test will come this weekend...Josh and I normally eat out. I haven't been craving anything bad though, so I'm hoping it won't be that difficult for me to stick to the diet. I was even able to pass by McDonalds last night while hungry! That's a HUGE accomplishment for me! I am McDonalds' number 1 fan!

Next week, I will start back with the weight lifting and cardio, that should speed up the results. I don't know what I realistically want to lose for this month...10-15 would be ideal, anything more would be great! I'm just glad the scale is moving in the right direction for once!

Until next time...

Revelations

The end of Day 1...it wasn't as bad as I was expecting! I only had a slight headache by dinner time and I was a little sluggish but definitely not as bad as I thought I would be. I think tomorrow will be difficult for me...now that my body is over the shock of not having it's normal food, it may just show out. Good times at work tomorrow! :) I had the chicken and wild rice soup for lunch and a side salad. I ate my food slowly as the book suggested and drank tons of water. I think I was in the bathroom more than I was at my desk today! I had grilled chicken and green beans for dinner and a brownie for my evening snack. The brownie wasn't all that great...I had a choice, either microwave it for a minute and a half or bake it in the oven. Hmmm...who wants a microwaved brownie?? It still wasn't to die for, but it was sweet and I ate it anyway! LOL Let's see what tomorrow brings...

Ok, so Josh and I had a real heart to heart talk tonight about how I have changed over the last year or so and I think the changes came with the weight gain. I used to feel as if I could do anything I set my mind to, but lately I doubt everything I do...I question my real purpose for being here and I care way too much about how others view me. I want to please everyone and if I think I won't accomplish that then I just won't try at all. So with the weight loss, I'm hoping to gain back my self-confidence, my self-esteem, and my happiness. I have posted a few sticky notes on my bathroom mirror as a reminder to myself...one states that I will not care what others think of me, another says that I can do anything I set my mind to and the last one states that I will NOT be fat forever! I want the old Tamika back! The always smiling, fun to be around, happy-go-lucky, let everything roll off her back Tamika...is she stuffed in this pile of fat around my mid-section? If so, I'm coming for you...I will see her again, real soon! ;-)

Until next time...

Day 1!

Today is the first day of my Medifast diet...Danielle came in to work and has lost 6 lbs since Saturday and Kandye has lost 5 since last Tuesday! Those are awesome results!! I can't wait to get some of this fat off of me!

I have had a shake for breakfast and a bar for my mid-morning snack...no headaches yet and no crazy hunger pain. I'm used to not eating alot before lunch so I wasn't expecting the morning to be very difficult. Now after lunch is going to be the problem. I always get hungry around 2 or 3 and all I have today is a shake for that meal! I'm hoping my side salad and soup for lunch will get me through most of the afternoon. If I can lose 5 lbs in the first 3 days and do it with minimum headaches, that will be a great start!!